Olúwafèyíṣarámi

I'll miss you. And all the craziness of you. But truth is I'm not what u want. I am what you need I know you feel the attraction Though you think I'm crazy. But there's that urge to quench your thirst. And unleash the beast in you. I feel it too. So let's wait until that is established. Until you crave me like your next breath. Until you're desperate for the most important thing. Until you're ready to live... Or ready to die. As I am.

I know I said this And did that And I know that I did what I should As the Lord asked of me But the human in me struggles And my emotions are a raging mess Oh heart, quiet down. Be still... Yet my heart is stayed on you. I keep checking to read from you And I'm not over your display picture. The attraction I feel is vivid and sharp, And definitely not something I'm used to, If at all, maybe twice.... And this is one of them... Yet you messed up and the password changed. Your access is denied. I was scared. But that was then. If the hold wasn't broken I'd have picked fights just to run away from this feeling. Or be thrown into another whirlwind of trouble. But I am grateful you are a "messer upper" Now I'm free to fly. Liberated, I see the wiles. My heart dances to new rhythm And a new tag line emerges Unlicensed users not welcome. Access denied.

Excited about getting trained outside the office premises I hopped home. And then a message. A declaration of your feelings.  My trainer. Hidden behind your accent and glasses A father, 3 times over Devoted. Doing all to give the best standard of living to his family... Pouring himself into new innovative ideas... A hard lover. Possesively sweet. You allowed me strip you with my questions  And let me into your world. And one glimpse and I'm hooked. I see in you, me. More than I care to admit. A me that I ran away from. One possibility of who I could become. You allowed me feel your pain and struggles Yet you refused to believe that there was more. You failed to trust that there could be a way beyond your way  You refused a glimpse into my world.  A proposal. A call A mistress? Your woman?  Or a friend who will be true Even through the different phases of life. The cards are on the table. Mere words won't do...

A family friend from childhood A friendship that was forged at youth camp And since then,managed to stay in touch. And then comes the twist Out of the blue, a proposal. A 2 weeks friends with benefit spree A time to test each other's sexual prowess. My gain? New knowledge on styles and some jewelry to boot. I laugh. The die was cast. Conditions were raised and demands made. And the proposal faded as passing wind. The price for the proposal couldn't be met. The drama continues And the more was laid on the table And you backed down and made decisions to remain as you are. Counting cost, logical reasoning and a PhD in view was enough. The established is structured and seen to work While the unknown is a risk. You pitch your tent on the towers of the known Proudly looking down at the folly of treading an emerging path. The matrix has you. Firm in its paws.

It's a wonderful morning Stuck on the BRT,many thanks to traffic Irritation and agitation everywhere To get to our different destinations And you saw me. On the annoying morning queue Waiting with my ticket to board And there you were waiting familiarly Smile on your face Urging me to come on in Confused, introduction was done.... And we talked. Friendship budded. You found there was more You took the red pill And entered the ship... But along the lines, It seemed it was never for the more. It was always about the girl. You wanted to have me...without paying the price. Confusion sets in. Ego enters the equation And the friendship becomes sour All that is left is your opinion about everything And nothing about life. Life just seeped out of it all Leaving a carcass of a relationship An obsession . You seem satisfied To catch just a whig of my perfume Or to steal a glance when I walk by in the morning. Or just to hear me laugh and say a hearty good m...

You are on a journey And all the drama around you Are all pointers to this work Pay attention. .. See and learn There's always something new to learn. Each person, each uniqueness is a speaking It is speaking to me.... Drawing the patterns in my life Building structures Knowing the colours The tools needed for construction The required skills The drama is a means to prepare me For the work to come I have to see I have to learn I have to live To be. To handle.  To use. To couple. To give.