Olúwafèyíṣarámi

Nothing is ever as it seems You saw the problem...for whatever reason.. And you needed it dealt with. You would have given anything at the time. Anything. You gave up your 'norm' without questions. Deleted all just in obedience...again for this cause. Now we are set to move. What's next? The unveilings. Are you ready? While we wait... We unlock our minds and become aware. On my side, I became aware of my being an 'enabler'. Many thanks to you and I'm working on it. I see how I've done that even to you, just because I feel you relate more emotionally. But I was wrong. You deserve more. That was not how he showed me his love. He rather stayed true to who he wants me to be. Rather than lift you up, I take you back into my dirt. I'm doing the same damage the songs would have done to you. Even though you don't know it. Nothing is ever as it seems.... I know your struggle. I put you there. I know what I opened you to..... But there...

For the first time, I have the strength to be alone. Just me And my thoughts and tears....And God who has seen me in all shades and decided to still love me. About you, I still don't know what to make of it all. Why abi? It's simple. This is not on the surface regardless of how things came to be. But on my side I've tried to squash it, yet it has decided to go deep. You really are something. I just don't know what to do with you or if it's even possible. My fears? The me you got all high on will tire you out. I'm not in a hurry to settle (I'm such a nutcase) but I want so much more that I wont want wahala. Come with me only if you're ready... Now I'm going to cry. I've lost a lot. Almost everything if not all. And all for what? I've given up on everything just to find you and all that you have promised. Oh I believed. I still believe. But you don't think we can handle it and on your mercy, you withhold it all. Lord, it's all I a...