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Nothing is ever as it seems
You saw the problem...for whatever reason..
And you needed it dealt with.
You would have given anything at the time.
Anything.
You gave up your 'norm' without questions.
Deleted all just in obedience...again for this cause.
Now we are set to move. What's next?
The unveilings. Are you ready?

While we wait...
We unlock our minds and become aware.
On my side, I became aware of my being an 'enabler'.
Many thanks to you and I'm working on it.
I see how I've done that even to you, just because I feel you relate more emotionally.
But I was wrong. You deserve more.
That was not how he showed me his love.
He rather stayed true to who he wants me to be.
Rather than lift you up, I take you back into my dirt.
I'm doing the same damage the songs would have done to you.
Even though you don't know it.

Nothing is ever as it seems....
I know your struggle. I put you there. I know what I opened you to..... But there's more.
Will you stay here for this?
Or will you come with me to him?
I've seen my wrong.
And I can't do anything without him. You've seen how I failed at everything without that anchor.
I can't love you without him.
It's the same as I drew for you.
The love between a father and son (God and Jesus) must equal the one I will show you...which must equal the one you show another. It's one stream....

Now I'm ready to move.
We have explored both worlds...
It won't be easy. It will be painful not to indulge....
But you have to trust.
I'll be here.
I'll be your guide. I'll hold your hand.
Are you ready?


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