Olúwafèyíṣarámi

Peace. My mouth says to my heart: "Be still. Do not fret. You have had enough time to think things thru. And you will be fine. Just shushhhhhhhhhh." I admit to myself about being attracted to the tree. Yes I am. All I want to do is reach and take a bite of its fruit. I have been here for a while, beating the temptation. and drawing strength from all around to seek instead for light that brings life. Over the years, the thirst for it has ebbed... Less intense Almost nonexistent. But I will not test me just yet. For a part of me still yearns for the forbidden fruit. I have dreamed and imagined how it would taste, Even prayed and cried for this fruit. Thus far, I have had to rely on the strength of others to pull through. Now, I face the tree...and I feel the yearnings in my throat My belly groans for it And my saliva gathers to receive it. The struggle..... Flesh vs. Spirit..... My mind searches to find all it has fed on I find that I am at a cross...

The Basic Questions: Marriage 101 Marriage.... I really am just pondering... I wonder... Some choices really have to be made when one is unsure of the route that everyone is taking. That choice is to pause, investigate and then push forward. I'm certain that sounds like something we would do ordinarily; but in truth, when it comes to the issue of marriage amongst other things, we never want to think. Rather, we would do as it is being done. But the question really is, how do we come about these things? Where did we find them? What exactly was the intent of the mind that came about these concepts? Is it the same thing that we see all around? What are the similarities and what are the questions? Marriage.  A mystery.  A word too lofty for even the greatest minds. A concept the wise have been made foolish over. And the learned have come to naught. The theologians of old couldn't understand it. and even those in search of truth only grazed its sur...

THE QUESTIONS of the BEGINNING I have always felt that I was special to God...I always was assured within me of his special interest and love towards me as an individual. And every single day, I wake up with something to look forward to...walking in the awesomeness of that presence...the confidence of just knowing that he is there with me. And everyday, all I wanted was to love him more and know him more....I wanted to see him face to face and embrace him. I wanted to move beyond the abstractness of the unseen to the 'physicality' of the seen. I wanted to bridge the gap between the him I knew personally and the abstract and almighty being that was taught in sunday school. And I went in search of him...and day by day, the more I knew, the more I needed to know....so much so that I had to get to redefine all that I knew. A redefinition of all that I thot I knew. I grew up learning first abt good and bad. What is good? If I know this, then I know what is bad. Right? Whe...