Peace. Be Still.

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Peace.

My mouth says to my heart:
"Be still.
Do not fret.
You have had enough time to think things thru.
And you will be fine.
Just shushhhhhhhhhh."

I admit to myself about being attracted to the tree.
Yes I am.
All I want to do is reach and take a bite of its fruit.
I have been here for a while, beating the temptation.
and drawing strength from all around to seek instead for light that brings life.
Over the years, the thirst for it has ebbed...
Less intense
Almost nonexistent.
But I will not test me just yet.
For a part of me still yearns for the forbidden fruit.

I have dreamed and imagined how it would taste,
Even prayed and cried for this fruit.
Thus far, I have had to rely on the strength of others to pull through.
Now, I face the tree...and I feel the yearnings in my throat
My belly groans for it
And my saliva gathers to receive it.
The struggle.....
Flesh vs. Spirit.....
My mind searches to find all it has fed on
I find that I am at a crossroad many before me had been..
They scaled through...that is why we can read about them.
What did they do?
They stepped above the chaos.
They quited down.
They chose the spirit over the flesh.
So, it is not always about what I want.
What the flesh wants to feed on is not necessarily the best for the being.
Hmmmm.....
I choose to trust only in what the spirit says
And I will allow him lead me.
The 'deader' I am in this flesh, the more alive I am.
But I am not taking chances. I won't.
Life must speak and it does speak!

Though drawn physically, I have no inner inclination to push for it.
Looking intently at the mata at hand, I see that the major problem in all that we r going thru and all the struggles and dramas has been because of the flesh. We have not intelligently looked at the issue and seen it thru God's eyes.
We haven't been able to look at it without the hurt, our personal opinions and the seeing of our eyes.
We haven't been able to walk thru it all in faith.
And I think that's the primary thing.
Every other thing is just secondary.
May the lord help us to die to ourselves.

So, Miss Shara,
Speak Peace...
Peace to ur soul.
Peace to ur heart.
Quiet down.
Be still.
Listen.
What does the spirit say?

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