Olúwafèyíṣarámi

Sometimes, I wonder where you went Other times, I can't fathom what got cold. All I know is that everything is somewhat sour. And I stand gaping at the void in my heart... Trying to get how to mend it. But in truth, it was always like this. And it shouldn't matter one wink now that it's the same. Why did I ever think things will ever be different? It's true that I dreamt that it'd all have a fairytale ending. How silly. Still, a girl is allowed to dream. Isn't she?

When things do not work according to set plans It shows there may be a need to re-strategize I need a freshness... Away from the past that have chosen not to be gone and away from those who ought to know but don't. I'm tired of these results. Perhaps I need to wait But everyone has an elastic limit. Mine is way exceeded. And though I'm playing along, My mind is made up And I am not going back. I owe it to myself to be whole And I owe it to whoever gets to be my friend To learn to know me for me. .. Without bias or corruption. And I am more than ready to take the risks. who said the known devil is better than the unknown angel? I think i will take my chances. I owe it to me to try.

I love you and I am right here... My heart bleeds for you. ..because I feel what you feel. My heart also rejoices because I feel his hand upon your life. Working on setting your gaze on him alone. I see him at work Removing all that has hedged you...cutting off all your comfort zones. And making the statement that he alone is God. Can you hear him? Are you still waiting for another sign? Are you looking for another Christ that suits your present knowledge? May the spirit guide you... And take you through a journey that will never leave you the same. You will see you and tremble at the wickedness in you. And through that knowledge of you, take your rightful place in leading your family. I can only show you the door. You have to be the one to walk through it. I love you.

There are many words and many expressions but you never can force a heart to yearn...it only takes a desperation; it takes one to have no other choice than to run to his maker. I do not have the right words...neither can i show you as I would've loved to without your trusting the one who has brought me thus far.... He has taken me through a journey and now I know the way...maybe not to the end but I know how i got here and i am willing to show you. ...only problem is that I can't do it without your consent. Still I journey on into the uncharted realms trusting that he will lead me through. Trust. Faith. Belief. How much more can one love? I had hoped that my story wouldn't just be a story to you.  I have said all there is to say. ..yet only tge person that has the spirit of God can the spirit draw. .. Was i wrong about you? Did he not show me that you're the one? Yet, every human has a will. .. It takes something extra to let go and let God. Brokenness... The...

The way to life passes through the path called truth. We walk that path by faith... Trusting the unseen. To follow you i have learnt requires a stripping. ..For nothing in this world,not even wisdom is useful on that journey to you. The wise looked for you through the logic of this world And the scholars failed to acknowledge the spirit. Hmmm...my people perish for lack of knowledge. .. And those that found him were the tax collectors and illiterates of their days... Common sense and brilliance just couldn't get anyone there. Shouldn't that tell me and you something? There are no words to reveal There is no high sounding grammar Neither is there anything else born of the earth that has any part in his truth... Coming to him, he is sure to strip of all that is earthly...be reborn in the spirit. This is a journey...it never happens by professing some words. When you get on the track, you just know. Everything will go through the fire And only that which is him...

IT IS TIME I see you I know what you are looking for. I know what keeps you awake all night. I know because I also looked for it… Forget all that you think you know. Because it won’t help you here. And it is not too late inspite of your choices. I know this because you are alive. Trust me. Trust God. You are the point of focus right now. Will you follow the pointer? It is time. I can show you the way. It won’t be an easy ride….perhaps, the most difficult ride of your life But it will be worth it all…. Forget all you have known… You cannot afford to mix the new waters with the old. It won’t work. Can you mix dirty water with clean and still expect to have clean water? No. Every coat of shroud that has enveloped you will be stripped…one after the other. Every dirt will be washed off….and your wickedness exposed. Can you afford to lose it all? It is your call. Ask your questions….make the choice. I knock… it is time.

I am like your shadow I'm with you wherever you go It is hard to shake me off as long as there's light I sleep with you and wake with you you feel the intimacy yet do not understand it Because you cannot touch it, its sacred... It is not something the grown human mind can grasp. But can you be as a child and willingly embrace it. Make the most of the light while it can still be found. Like a shadow I'm stuck on you For the little while there is light When night comes, I'll be long gone...I shall retire. For that path you will tread alone Or better still, I will be your unseen and unheard companion...urging you on to the next ray of light. I am the light. But I can only show you the way... It is left for you to actually walk it.