Olúwafèyíṣarámi

Irrespective of my present pain or  joy, You are true. And although I acknowledge my wants, Although I am helpless to what I feel, I know that there is much more than this with you. If I can give this to you, all of it, I know in you alone is forever certain. I will not gamble today no matter my wins If it cannot translate into that forever.

One day at a time. Breathe, no matter how much it hurts. Be true inside out, no matter who is looking. One day at a time. One step at a time. Each step burns. But heals. Each burn intensifies my love. And gratitude. No words. Just me and all these. Sigh.

No words can convey. No words. No fear No noise. In the place of numbness, hope. In the place of guilt, I embrace brokenness. In the place of anger, I throw myself at you to do with me as you please. In the place of resentment is pure love and care. No words. I cherish and embrace it all....the story...the persons....the learnings. The entire journey is one of love. No words. Just gratitude.

Every one craves to be heard; Without words, telepathic responses To laugh  at my every silly joke To be given special preference over others To whisper exclusive "sweet nothings" Rosy, sweet and romantic fights... Joy and laughter overflows from the fountain within, A perfect understanding of one another Our body language made for the other The perfect fantasy. A relationship unrefined by fire. Untouched by the cross. Sweet nothings. What we seek depends on the world we belong to. What essence do we seek? Or who needs a 'nothing' cos it is sweet? We crave Essence! The ideal! The real! A relationship established on principles; And on co-building with the divine.

Phases. This is partly what I have been missing. IT IS ALL A PHASE. But my mind had wrapped itself around the drama and made it the norm. It has damaged my soul and made me weary. But it is a phase. A damn phase. So it must have an exit. This is not me. It is just a phase in my journey. Help me heal from all of the drama before. Help me learn of them well. You have broken me and are breaking me still. Give me the strength to go through these sufferings....because I don't want to come back here. Help me heal that I may be whole.

It was beautiful. A gift on both counts. You gave me 'the' priceless gift One I cherish and will never forget. I'm honored to be the one. For me, you were the exception. One I chose....for this... That was all me...all you. A very beautiful making....a gift. But more.... This is what we subscribed to. Much more than this. And we will find it. It's a lifetime subscription. As long as we are plugged to the same source. I won't be your idol. You won't be mine. I am what I am to you. Nothing changes. Nothing touches it. You will always hold that space. I am grateful for you. And will love you always.

In the midst of crisis Opportunities arise. In WRONG, there is GROWN. Perspective.....