whatever it takes
today i saw a butterfly.
and i remember the good old days, the few overwhelmingly happy times i remember.me and my cousins,every holiday will camp at our grandparents and will take long walks during the evenings.we run into the large field just across the road and run in search of butterflies and ladybugs. each butterfly had its own unique beauty.none was exactly the same as the other and neither was any of the bugs exactly the same as the other. it was always wonderful to breathe in the field and feel the last bit of the sun before it sets in.and then, it hit me that i didn't enjoy these moments more even though i cherish and relish them so much. i cannot count my happy moments without the moments spent with you.
forgiveness is the power you hold in your hands to move beyond the past into the future; it gives the strength to wholesomeness.
this note is to my friend who means so much to me but always thinks that i think that all is a game to me and that the ball is in someone else's court; therefore, will always slip away sometime. i am here to tell u that i am here to stay...
from the onset, it never crossed my mind that it was a fluke.i gave all and wanted all. all the times you were there for me and gave all just to make me laugh, i remember each very very clearly and hold it dear because i don't have much of those in my life. so with all that is in me, i cherish it all and appreciate it.
i have forgiven u many times and given excuses for your short-comings all for the sake of love. it is true that i grew up not knowing if to turn right or move left when it came to relating with people. i would choose any day, the comfort of my bed over the awkwardness of making small conversations. but here i am, doing not just that but happily ready to do more and without a glitch.
i have grown out of my shell like a butterfly from its cocoon. i only wish i am as beautiful as the butterfly; both inside and out. it is still is a struggle not to over-scrutinize people under a microscope before taking a bold step toward the progression of that relationship but i at least have been able to get into conversations easily enough with anyone. every time i sit alone, i still try to work on myself by looking inward and re-evaluating myself. i am learning to accept the diversity of the cultures around me and the myriad mindsets i come in contact with each day.
i may not be able to manage my friendships well because of where i am coming from, including the experiences of my life,but it doesn't make me love less. i love with all of my heart and it hurts as hell when it's thrown back in my face. to me, love is priceless. i may be afraid of it every now and then when it seems so overwhelming or too good to be true. i may fidget and go crazy from the fear of being too happily carried away and then slapped all over again, but that doesn't make me love you less.
and i remember the good old days, the few overwhelmingly happy times i remember.me and my cousins,every holiday will camp at our grandparents and will take long walks during the evenings.we run into the large field just across the road and run in search of butterflies and ladybugs. each butterfly had its own unique beauty.none was exactly the same as the other and neither was any of the bugs exactly the same as the other. it was always wonderful to breathe in the field and feel the last bit of the sun before it sets in.and then, it hit me that i didn't enjoy these moments more even though i cherish and relish them so much. i cannot count my happy moments without the moments spent with you.
forgiveness is the power you hold in your hands to move beyond the past into the future; it gives the strength to wholesomeness.
this note is to my friend who means so much to me but always thinks that i think that all is a game to me and that the ball is in someone else's court; therefore, will always slip away sometime. i am here to tell u that i am here to stay...
from the onset, it never crossed my mind that it was a fluke.i gave all and wanted all. all the times you were there for me and gave all just to make me laugh, i remember each very very clearly and hold it dear because i don't have much of those in my life. so with all that is in me, i cherish it all and appreciate it.
i have forgiven u many times and given excuses for your short-comings all for the sake of love. it is true that i grew up not knowing if to turn right or move left when it came to relating with people. i would choose any day, the comfort of my bed over the awkwardness of making small conversations. but here i am, doing not just that but happily ready to do more and without a glitch.
i have grown out of my shell like a butterfly from its cocoon. i only wish i am as beautiful as the butterfly; both inside and out. it is still is a struggle not to over-scrutinize people under a microscope before taking a bold step toward the progression of that relationship but i at least have been able to get into conversations easily enough with anyone. every time i sit alone, i still try to work on myself by looking inward and re-evaluating myself. i am learning to accept the diversity of the cultures around me and the myriad mindsets i come in contact with each day.
i may not be able to manage my friendships well because of where i am coming from, including the experiences of my life,but it doesn't make me love less. i love with all of my heart and it hurts as hell when it's thrown back in my face. to me, love is priceless. i may be afraid of it every now and then when it seems so overwhelming or too good to be true. i may fidget and go crazy from the fear of being too happily carried away and then slapped all over again, but that doesn't make me love you less.
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