grateful but pressing on

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At the very beginning, I remember the letter u sent to me. It was an indication that there was a lot of dross, a lot of filth that I as way buried beneath. Underneath all of the dirt, was where I was and I needed to be rid and well cleaned of all of that to find me. There is no way you can know yourself until you are cleansed from the dross.

The unclean must eventually be clean. I had to agree first that I was covered in filth and I could see it; then I had to be ready to do whatever it took for me to be rid of it. The lord has his way of taking people through their different journeys. And this was another beginning for me. I cherished it more than the life that I was so ready to throw away. It was a blessing. Mercy on my soul.

This story is not about me but about you. It is about love. It is about appreciation from me to you. I remembered all of that and more about the measures you took all so that I could become totally free from the dross.

The trouble that one goes through to bring you out of your mess and by grace into a message is humbling; my journey into newness is uplifting. I found love and I found you. There is an investment that i see you put into my life, so much so that it troubled the watching eyes and the listening ears. The tongues did wag but the cleansing was being done. I was humbled. I found grace. I received his mercy. I found love in the midst of the storm. I found you in the midst of the whirlwinds. And for this that I see, I am grateful.

Now, I am here. Looking through your eyes, seeing the work you put into molding me in the way purposed by God in spite of me. I am not blind to all that you have done and are still doing. And a life laid down for one deserves a life in turn. A life for a life. The lord gave me life that I may give it back. I have received it and now must give it away.
What I have received, I must learn to give right back. It never stops with me. It mustn't.  I give my life away just because you did the same for me.

I love you
Just because he loved me.
I do
Just because he did
I give
Just because I have received.
Of this, and much more, I am grateful.

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