just as he is. love.

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if the lord will not deal with me based on the right or the wrong that i do
and i have seen that stance enough to accept his love
then, i should do likewise.
i cannot relate with someone on the basis of expressions;
what you do or do not do should not be the basis of my interactions.
i have learnt this well and i am still learning it.

you can try all you can to be all that you never used to be
you might have repented or truly even care about my welfare.
i may enjoy the attention and it may seem like all you think i ever wanted
but that's not relevant any more.
i will enjoy it all like i would from everyone else around me.
and i will still tread with caution and test every motive.

still, all of that doesn't change my stance.
it never has
and it never will.
i have received freely from my father.
and this same mercy, i freely give to you.
it doesn't matter if you think you deserve it or not;
but do not mess it up.
gifts are freely given because one has the potential of making the most of it.

i love you because he loves me.
i choose you because my relationship with him,
i can see with you on the horizontal plane.
so as he has taught me, i will do...
his will is all that matters to me.
that which i see my father do, that also i do.
what i saw from the beginning, i renew today.
i see your issues like i see mine.
they stare at me in the face everyday but i am never proud of them.
i see the struggle in you too.
underneath it all.

i see you.
i love you.
i choose you.
just because.
i am just as he is.

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