Broken-ing

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And here I am once again,
My heart breaking in pieces
My song shattering to bits
Just because I really dared to feel
I dared to be tired
And my strength wavered.
Mouths may run with ideas and diagnosis
I brought his on myself.
For a moment, I forgot
I have no wisdom for this new place...
This truly was inevitable.

Now I have to unbuild it all
And allow this shattering again.
Just so you, you and you and even me can be saved from this unending drama.
Lest all our previous work be in vain.


Broken I may be
But ready to go that mile
Nothing short of life.
I don't expect my heart to understand
Or to love me back for this
I don't even care if any of you see
That it was all for the best.
This drama must end here.
I have no strength to go through it again.

I have no words to say I'm sorry
Yet I  hope the message reaches you loud and clear
I am all sold out....the tentacles of my emotions raging,
Yet for this cause,
The foundation must be firm
That the roof may be right.
Somehow, I trust he would make things work
According to his good purpose.
Broken.....but I hope...I trust it's for my best.

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