Olúwafèyíṣarámi

The isolated beach helped clear my mind and hear you right. Helped calm my anger and help me focus. Reminded me of what it is to have a life without you And to appreciate the gift of life. The deep blue sea, the palm trees that line the shore... I sit at the foot of one of the palm trees In the shadow of the fronds I sit staring at at the ocean, with tears streaming down my face What did I do wrong? Why do I open myself so wide and get hurt so deep? I have a lot on my mind and do not know which hurts the deepest. I am just like the raging waters, wild but confined by its shores. Colorful, but constrained by light. I search deep within and table my heart, laying it all bare Leaving nothing uncovered You Implying that I am a fraud hurts way deeper than any cursed word you could spit That's what cuts.....because I loved you. And would have interceded without your asking... But you reminded me just today that if I was sent, they should have told me that we all ...

Had a fabulous holiday. The beach house was dope. Away from the noise, my troubles and craziness. Easter did me well. Helped balm my broken heart. And put together my broken spirit. Playing with Perez Opened my eyes to the colors of love inside of me It was fun pouring my love into all that I love. I didn't even know I had missed cooking that much. I cooked, I read, I danced, I sang my heart out, I ran, I cried... But more so, I laughed. And I opened myself up to the love around me. ToluSanmi, I am blessed to have you. I have been refreshed by your love And in your house, I found peace to my troubled heart. The beach's healing powers was not wasted on me either. The waters and me became one, along with the blue skies and the white sands of the shore. How I enjoyed my Easter!

You took the pride in me And broke it to bits You turned all my questions to naught Reminding me of my journey thus far. The reason for leading me out first From the matrix Is so that those still in the matrix can find their way out. All you need is one man, a part for the whole. Oh what strategy. The work of engrafting is being done. For your work's sake. Pride was in me. Blindingly distracting me from the goal I swerved off course And slipped over my vomit. I totally forgot about mercy. I disregarded faith. And logic set in. I became a judge by the seeing of these eyes. Though my mind may dwell on logical reasoning, But my heart is stayed on you. You looked into my heart and had mercy on my ignorance. And set me free from me. Now I see. Today, I know. The wickedness in me revealed. The pride in me unveiled. My doubts are alleviated Now, i can be true. True to the words you spoke to me when I was under. Mercy... Mer...

Long overdue. On the waiting list too long. Now it's here. I'm so happy I didn't even stop to consider my outfit I broke all laws And cajoled the authorities, Just to be with you today. In love Deliriously happy.... I grin on,stupidly and without reason A hope of what's to come. Still mulling on that, The bees come, buzzing their way through. The alfa, the artist, the schoolboy. All sang one horrid song of distraction But my soul be too damn happy to respond. I stood. Walked. Sat. My eyes focused on just one thing. You. I'm here, dancing in the rain Naked. No where to hide. This is me. All of me. I've come to bare all Once again, to you. Mobius Agenda...that's my goal. I flap. I hop.  I bow. Just to learn deeper of you. To become fitting for you. To learn to love you, as you've loved me. You alone. I am here with you. Let us dance,my love Unhindered, Naked and happy Let us make a new song, A rhythm for two. T...

I'll miss you. And all the craziness of you. But truth is I'm not what u want. I am what you need I know you feel the attraction Though you think I'm crazy. But there's that urge to quench your thirst. And unleash the beast in you. I feel it too. So let's wait until that is established. Until you crave me like your next breath. Until you're desperate for the most important thing. Until you're ready to live... Or ready to die. As I am.

I know I said this And did that And I know that I did what I should As the Lord asked of me But the human in me struggles And my emotions are a raging mess Oh heart, quiet down. Be still... Yet my heart is stayed on you. I keep checking to read from you And I'm not over your display picture. The attraction I feel is vivid and sharp, And definitely not something I'm used to, If at all, maybe twice.... And this is one of them... Yet you messed up and the password changed. Your access is denied. I was scared. But that was then. If the hold wasn't broken I'd have picked fights just to run away from this feeling. Or be thrown into another whirlwind of trouble. But I am grateful you are a "messer upper" Now I'm free to fly. Liberated, I see the wiles. My heart dances to new rhythm And a new tag line emerges Unlicensed users not welcome. Access denied.

Excited about getting trained outside the office premises I hopped home. And then a message. A declaration of your feelings.  My trainer. Hidden behind your accent and glasses A father, 3 times over Devoted. Doing all to give the best standard of living to his family... Pouring himself into new innovative ideas... A hard lover. Possesively sweet. You allowed me strip you with my questions  And let me into your world. And one glimpse and I'm hooked. I see in you, me. More than I care to admit. A me that I ran away from. One possibility of who I could become. You allowed me feel your pain and struggles Yet you refused to believe that there was more. You failed to trust that there could be a way beyond your way  You refused a glimpse into my world.  A proposal. A call A mistress? Your woman?  Or a friend who will be true Even through the different phases of life. The cards are on the table. Mere words won't do...