Olúwafèyíṣarámi

Shattered bits of glass, I may be; Unexpected, you cut way deeper than ever was reached. That's how much I dared to unveil. You may never understand, But you touched the deepest parts and cut it. Still in the midst of it all,  There's nothing left to fear. I think I've seen it all in my short years. Yet, I bounce back with my scars, healed... And.....Forgiveness smiles through lessons learnt. Love bubbles on... Deep and wide; unguarded and unassuming. Like the song in my heart. Oh, I will sing for love. Hear me! I will not shrink back from being me. But all 'unnecessities' must go. I will love again, and again. And forgive as many times as I can. Love bubbles on in my heart for you. And because of you, I find time for this again. I write a new song. Nothing lost, nothing missing. Every mess comes together  Into one beautiful message. I write a new song.

Life is short And feelings are too deep to be based on momentary things. I have learnt in my short years on earth That those things that are worth it And those things that make you happy to be alive May not always make you smile It may even get you angry And hurt you time and again But will always warm your heart when you look beyond the surface. It makes your heart beat....an abundant assurance of love Even when it’s all blue. It may not seemingly make you happy today Or even make sense right now. It may come with its own fears But in the overall picture, It is just what it is, …. WORTH IT. I count those things, my blessings... My kids, My family, my friends.....name them All those things that define who I am (definitely not something seen) All those things that when taken away, are still a major part of me I carry their essence in the quality of my life. I celebrate those things that make my heart beat. You are worth it. `

I see the pattern. My entire journey is so that I can see this. It is a war. A battle of systems. I see the ex. Who wants counsel and intersession yet is reluctant to pay the price. I see the brt guy, Who will willingly pay the price but his motives will make him demand a return. I see the sex guy Who will rather stay unyielding until someone else clears the path. I see the trainer Who wants what he wants and on his own terms, unbowing. I see the guitarist Who will choose to remember only memories that appeal to the heart I see the brother. Who wants what he wants the way he wants it. Everyone wants to eat their cake and yet have it. They propose, I accept on a condition…and all hell breaks lose. Not one is willing to pay the price for the treasure. Yet they want the treasure. There is no difference. Lesson is, what you want you must be ready to die for… To me, I must see how difficult or near impossible it is to break a heart set on i...

The isolated beach helped clear my mind and hear you right. Helped calm my anger and help me focus. Reminded me of what it is to have a life without you And to appreciate the gift of life. The deep blue sea, the palm trees that line the shore... I sit at the foot of one of the palm trees In the shadow of the fronds I sit staring at at the ocean, with tears streaming down my face What did I do wrong? Why do I open myself so wide and get hurt so deep? I have a lot on my mind and do not know which hurts the deepest. I am just like the raging waters, wild but confined by its shores. Colorful, but constrained by light. I search deep within and table my heart, laying it all bare Leaving nothing uncovered You Implying that I am a fraud hurts way deeper than any cursed word you could spit That's what cuts.....because I loved you. And would have interceded without your asking... But you reminded me just today that if I was sent, they should have told me that we all ...

Had a fabulous holiday. The beach house was dope. Away from the noise, my troubles and craziness. Easter did me well. Helped balm my broken heart. And put together my broken spirit. Playing with Perez Opened my eyes to the colors of love inside of me It was fun pouring my love into all that I love. I didn't even know I had missed cooking that much. I cooked, I read, I danced, I sang my heart out, I ran, I cried... But more so, I laughed. And I opened myself up to the love around me. ToluSanmi, I am blessed to have you. I have been refreshed by your love And in your house, I found peace to my troubled heart. The beach's healing powers was not wasted on me either. The waters and me became one, along with the blue skies and the white sands of the shore. How I enjoyed my Easter!

You took the pride in me And broke it to bits You turned all my questions to naught Reminding me of my journey thus far. The reason for leading me out first From the matrix Is so that those still in the matrix can find their way out. All you need is one man, a part for the whole. Oh what strategy. The work of engrafting is being done. For your work's sake. Pride was in me. Blindingly distracting me from the goal I swerved off course And slipped over my vomit. I totally forgot about mercy. I disregarded faith. And logic set in. I became a judge by the seeing of these eyes. Though my mind may dwell on logical reasoning, But my heart is stayed on you. You looked into my heart and had mercy on my ignorance. And set me free from me. Now I see. Today, I know. The wickedness in me revealed. The pride in me unveiled. My doubts are alleviated Now, i can be true. True to the words you spoke to me when I was under. Mercy... Mer...

Long overdue. On the waiting list too long. Now it's here. I'm so happy I didn't even stop to consider my outfit I broke all laws And cajoled the authorities, Just to be with you today. In love Deliriously happy.... I grin on,stupidly and without reason A hope of what's to come. Still mulling on that, The bees come, buzzing their way through. The alfa, the artist, the schoolboy. All sang one horrid song of distraction But my soul be too damn happy to respond. I stood. Walked. Sat. My eyes focused on just one thing. You. I'm here, dancing in the rain Naked. No where to hide. This is me. All of me. I've come to bare all Once again, to you. Mobius Agenda...that's my goal. I flap. I hop.  I bow. Just to learn deeper of you. To become fitting for you. To learn to love you, as you've loved me. You alone. I am here with you. Let us dance,my love Unhindered, Naked and happy Let us make a new song, A rhythm for two. T...