i can take it

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I have been mad and angry for a while at almost everything especially you. But I just realised that thr was a time I was accused of being indifferent to issues that should hurt me. Now that's a contrast. Today I realise that there may seem to be many things to be mad about but truth is whatever I may be going thru is not man related. Irrespective of the person, it is all an experience he is taking me thru for my good. Whoever I have hurt or have been used as his learning curve, as long as he is chosen of the lord, it is God working it in him to be better thru me. Whether or not I am thr, he will device a way to make that experience happen. So, Feyi, snap out of it and stop feeling guilty. It is unnecessary. U have been a learning curve just as others r ur learning curve. See who u have become thru that experience and be grateful for it. I am a son with lots of scars to show for it...and I know I will yet bear more...I just pray for the capacity to bear it all. for I know that d deeper I descend/die, the higher I wil rise. I won't settle too soon. I am in search of the source...the water table... I can take it.

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