NOT ALL THAT IS GOLD GLITTERS

I sit to brood
This time, my focus shifts to attraction and its different elements.
I wonder why no one volunteers to take a walk with me anymore
I wonder why my words are now so easily ignored
I wonder when I became invisible
I wonder when I stopped getting all the attention.
I wonder at so many things. I ask so many questions.
I compare my before and my now in that respect.
And my heart readily wishes for the time past.
How I wish I was the apple of these eyes once again.
How I wish I held much importance that I can’t but be looked for.

And then, comes the voice.
It speaks loud and clear
And again, I laugh at my folly.
Yes, I had this. I had all the attention and care and pampering.
Oh yes I did.
But what changed? Yes. I guess that’s the big question. Isn’t it?
The only thing that changed in me is that I grew.
Yes. I grew.

As bees are naturally attracted to nectar
And flies naturally are attracted to sores,
So humans are to the new and the shiny.
Take gold. Or its counterfeit.
The attraction to the bling comes naturally….but that doesn’t make it gold.
Indeed all that glitters is not gold;
The more the dross, the more the shine.
Gold refined has only the elements in it that makes it solid. Nothing more.
The more solid the gold, the more its quality.
Whether it shines or not, only those who care for quality will be attracted to it.

Why then will I expect to be a sore to the flies?
Or nectar to bees?
Why was it so hard for me to see that being refined
Cleanses me from all the lustre of ‘naturality’ and humanity?
Do I see that moving closer to the mark improves my quality heavenward?
Yet, we all want to be relevant. The question then is this:
How do we measure being relevant?
How do I define relevance?
I have grown. No apologies.
I am moving daily toward perfection. That’s my goal.
So, who cares about lustre? Is that what the father is looking out for in me?
If not, it all does not matter.
Not one tiny-winy bit!