Proposition or Pride?

The Lord woos his bride.
There is a place for Solomon to woo his beloved.
There is a place for proving that you are worthy of her.
She needs to be convinced to go with you on that journey.
Again, you need to make an effort;
Not just throw it at her feet and gloat at her shortcomings.
Yet play around as usual, frolicking without remorse.
Waiting to point out that you are in the right
Supposedly, the one who knows what he is doing
To be respected, listened to as Lord of all.
How dare you play God?
When even God whom you claim to emulate
Is focused on his bride
Without pride.

How dare you ask the question of a lifetime
Without total conviction in your heart?
Oh, you were asked to wait for the proper moment?
That wait was for you, not me
My count starts from the moment you pop the question.
And Lord knows I am far from being convinced.
You have laid it on the table.
I have heard you....take it or leave it...it does not matter to me.
You may have meant well. but it sounds like an insult...
You are a man with many options.
You know your value and refuse to see the value you wish to acquire.
Are you sure you can sell all to buy this land?
Can you see the treasure in the land.....or it is just one of the many treasures...?
Every moment you spit
Words convey to me how much you cannot be bothered.
As though it were all about you and your worth.
Why then did you ask me?
Why then are you asking me that trick question?
Just for fun? Or to prove a point?
Destiny has no part in this, I tell you.

Yes, it is all about destiny
Yes, it is never just about emotions
We have heard it said over and over again
And we have chewed and swallowed it.
We are learning to live this life.
Still, please do not insult me with my shortcomings.
I know I am not in the right frame of mind.
I am aware I have to work on myself
But, bat as I am right now, my senses see.
Even if my heart ever inclined to you,
I will never submit to being an option.
Will never settle for less.

I am who I am.
It is a new phase.
One I have no wisdom of yet...or haven't you read?
It is a new place...a higher ground.
It is wounding me, pruning me, exposing all my frailties...
So he can solidify all that is me.
I smile.
Either you see it or you don't.
Either you believe it or you don't.
Either you hold it dear or you don't.
Where you stand,
Determines whether you fight for it or you don't.
And trust me, I am worth fighting for.
I just don't think you know it enough to sell all.